It’s my birthday.

It’s also the first birthday i’ve had where my mum wasn’t here to give me a hug in the morning and do a nummy (though always groggy) breakfast. It was really really nice for amy to put such effort into breakfast and it was good to see a smiling face in the morning.. combined with the psychotic dog..

but it’s just so .. weird without mum.

Anyway, my day is going to be complex and hopefully not too out of control.. i have to work this morning, reherse later on, go to uni.. then hopefully be able to do some study.

Em’s on her way over now to.. *ahem* .. drive me to my NEW car! (YES!)..oo .. that sorta sentance just totally made me happy.. I’ve been in the process of getting this new car for god-knows how long.. and finally i’ll be able to drive it. ..

Sooo .. what does my forcast of b-day presents look like.. well amy got me The Animatrix on DVD .. which is something i’ve wanted for ages .. Em got me these cool cool jeans, and helped me get some other new clothes with some money that mum left me. .. though what my main present will beeee hopefully anyway (depending on the birthday money situation) will be one of these .. or atleast the 400 model instead. .. so finally after years of using a silly lil cam on the pda i’ll be able to have a real digital camera *yay* …

Hrms.. so hope u all have a great day.

I’ll try to keep the stress down.. and the fatigue away!

contrary to popular belief i’m not dead.

I think i should be, at least my brain. Uni’s been hitting me quite hard, as i think i talked about before, writing is just so hard.. i feel out of my depth. I feel i have an understanding of it all, but i don’t have a firm enough grasp of the language, and of what is expected.. more importantly, how i can output what is expected .. already i feel like i’ve let my supervisor down, even though i haven’t submitted anything yet.. it makes everything so very stressful.

So my doings as of late .. well lately it’s just been uni work.. but mum’s been down for the past 2 weeks (school break here) .. she left for the country yesturday morning, so i won’t see her for another 10-13ish weeks. I felt like a bit of bastard when she was here, because my sister and i sort of slipped back into the old way of functioning, ie: lets let mum do all the work and we’ll be slack. I wasn’t intending to be such a lazy prick, just i had so much work to do it was stupid.. i took her out for dinner a couple of times, and the night before she had to go i treated her to a movie .. so i helped a bit.. I’ll have to try and remember next holidays to give her more of a hand.

Prior to that, the easter weekend i went away with em and her family down to this new 5-star resort.. was a really good 4 days. We spent most of it hanging around the resort, going down to their stunning beach, making dinner in our villa and drinking red-wines. The last day and a half the weather turned a bit dark (this was the same day we decided to go for a drive to check out wineries/chocolate factory/etc) .. but i had a great time.. as i’ve said, it took me 3 days to forget about uni work.. so i had a day and a half with a fairly blank mind… god i wish i was still away :P

Anyway.. this is enough procrastination for the moment.. i’ll try not to ignore you for so long my pretty.

ps. site of the week: http://home.iprimus.com.au/djwright/

it’s crazy how much things have changed and morphed over the last 1-2 years (history) .. i’m almost waist deep in my honours now and it seems like completing uni is miles away, it really does seem like an impossible goal.

Every moment of every day now that i’m not spending time on my honours work i have this strange feeling of guilt, a nagging feeling like i should be doing something more. This feeling hasn’t been too unbearable until last wednesday during a gig.. I felt like a real cock telling the other guys that i’d have to start limiting my band occasions during the week to 1 or 2 things (rehersals and/or gigs) especially with how recently we’ve had no rehersal time at all, and i think we’re all wanting to try and get some new material under our belts.

Anyway, this is sort of the beginning of the holidays, next week is a makeup week (so i’ve only got 1 class), and the week after is the actual holiday..on the 9th i’m going down south with em and her family, should be a good little break.

And speaking of gigs, have 2 this weekend.. tonight we open for a pop-rock thingo down at mojo’s and tomorrow we’re in the last 3 acts of a 10 band afternoon of sunday mahem!

oo.. everyone go check out the new layout at intensify.org

[update: the intensify layout is even cooler when your web-browser doesn't cache it in a stupid way!.. hahaha.. i'm an ass-muncher i know.]