I think our little dog is finally losing it. The last few days our poor baby 11yo cockerspaniel has been wandering around the house aimlessly, getting into every single nook and cranny, bumping into this and that and wreaking chaos everywhere she goes. On top of this, i’ve started to become aware of her inability to leap up onto the couches anymore, which i’m sure sure could do just fine a week or two back.

Now, i don’t want to claim to know much about dogs (or animals in general), but is this some sort of odd “*I’m sick, please help me*” cry of help from our puppy ? – I wish she had a blog so i could know what’s going on (i’m sure this concept was mentioned once by kitta.net but i couldn’t find it anywhere) ..

Also, does it make me a bad person that i’ll try not to think about her – i’ll push the thoughts of her to the back of my head, and i’ll ignore the fact that she’s been scratching at my door from like 1am-2am until i let her in, whereby she’ll continue to wander around my room for about 30mins before passing out on my couch?

Mum comes home for school break today – so hopefully she’ll know what to do, i mean it is *her* dog.. not that that’s a good excuse.

I used to think i was fairly tolerant of graphic movies. Action/horror – whatever – Usually i’d be able to calmly sit down and watch even the most violent of flix and feel nothing, it’s like i have a switch on the back of my head that relays a message to my brain “don’t think about the next 1 and a half hours christian, it’s just a movie, just relax and enjoy it – i’m turning off your thinking process.. now” only to awaken from this stupor 1.5 hours later and believe that i enjoyed a relatively crummy movie.

Irréversible took my notion of “tolerant towards graphic-movies” and threw it out the window. Actually, it first repeatedly smashed this notion against some concrete floor, repeatedly, before throwing it out through a plate glass window.. let me tell you – the notion didn’t look too pretty. Irréversible is a movie written and directed by a french fellow called Gaspar Noé and if you haven’t heard anything about it well let me fill you in.

As you walk down the “New-Release” isle at your dvd/vid-store – you might notice a movie available to rent which has some warnings attached – something about the movie being banned for a while, graphic scenes, make up your own mind, etc – this in itself didn’t really set off too many alarm bells – because as i recall at some stage in history A Clockwork Orange was once banned.. but then i started remembering conversations i’d had with people who’d seen Irréversible, mainly discussing the movies two most graphic scenes – the “Head-Bashing” scene and the “Rape” scene. So, Jen & I being fairly naive about what this movie could entail rented it out.

It was the first time in my conscious memory that i had ever stopped a movie, not because it was just so mind-numbingly boring, or it was just plain old pathetic – it was just that .. disturbing. Those two scenes i mentioned earlier, are easily the most graphic and disturbing things i have ever seen in my life – real life or.. uhh .. unreal life. If i had a list of top 10 most disturbing things i had ever seen, this movie would be in 1st place – and the remaining 9 spots would be left blank.

I won’t go into details about the “scenes” more-so than what i titled them above, but it really effected me – which i suppose is what the director was after – but so much so, that i could never recommend this movie to anyone .. i mean seriously.. as much as it did have an influence on me, i would not recommend anyone ever watch this film. But being as contradictory as i am, after stopping the movie mid-rape scene, i found myself wondering what was going to happen next – i mean the two most graphic scenes had passed, so what was left? … after taking a chaser (read: a nice soft comedy movie) – i found myself watching the end of Irréversible – and even though in parts it made the movie feel “ok”, i just can’t seem to shake the images that this movie placed in my head.

I was talking to someone else about it, and i mentioned that if the two “scenes” had been toned down – or shortened – then the movie could have been brilliant, but then of course i wouldn’t have written this entry.. I guess Noé was trying to “shock” his audiences, in which case, i give him two thumbs up – but why in the name of God would anyone want to “shock” their audience as much as this movie did?

I guess as much as i’m warning anyone away from this movie, in the end you’ll have to make up your own mind.